and thanks...

i need reminders that i am blessed.... there are weeks when things move so slowly, so haltingly, so irritatingly backwards & frustratingly i need to remember... that grace abounds.. that this is yet another season of my life... and that it serves the greater purpose of the whole... i am one to leap willingly, joyously.... wholehearted & caffeinated-ly into the good - the JuJu, the Bahva.. the good schutff... Yes! I can be heard to proclaim! This is it! The stuff of life! The nectar of existence. Atlong last!! How I've found you! Claimed you! I now take you for my own! Let us never be parted! Let the goodness that now runs thru my veins and in-habits my Sphere .. let it never cease! Let the bad, the drudgery, the anger,the vexation.. the pain... let it wait forever upon my doorstep, never to be summoned, nor answered again! For Yes!!! Joy! How I'/ve found you!!! Let us never be parted!! I've tapped the goodness, I've entered the flow... never to exit again... But then.. You are... The flowing, gorgeous sense of continuity that guided your steps for a few days, maybe even weeks... goes on leave.. takes a vacation.. perhaps an extended one.... and the things that were so right.. so glisteningly perfect & humming.... their song, for the time, is silenced.... unaccompanied... inharmonious... unpleasant.. inert. for if it hums, it falls on deaf ears... your Joy receptors have gone on holiday.. leaving you with..... What????? and i need to remember... there is no light without darkness... there is no beauty without the deep cavern of sometimes pain & suffering (of both small & great magnitudes I am sure...) to lend the waters of ease & enjoyment a place to reside... let the uncomfortable, loathsome & hard spots carve you deeper... so that you can contain yet more joy!!! (but it is so difficult to remember at times...) i need reminders... i need reminders.... i need to re-member sometimes... that this too is a part of the blessing... that the world is an ever-waking dance of both death & vitality.. and they walk side by side.. hand-in-hand.... and every day.... we get to wake up.... and make the decision.... moment by moment.... which wins.... the darkness or the Light... and sometimes Darkness gains a foothold..... sometimes we wander in the cave.... sometimes we forget the warmth & nourishment of the Sun.... and then.. and then... so we keep reminders..... folded, origami-style in our back pockets, splayed across our walls and our refrigerators... lurking in the eyes & reassurances of those we love.. and sometimes of those we have yet to know... that frankly... none of us gets out of here Alive... and the best any of us can do... is to do.. well... the Best we can do.. on any given day.... though it may feel rotten or unendingly difficult.. ploddingly.. but assuredly... one foot.. then the other.... keep coming toward the Light... and i am given reminders.... an unexpected embrace... a beautiful sunset... art & children.. & the joys of a wet bathing suit..... rambling words that somehow makes sense of the thread.... prophets, luminaries, poets, pranksters & madmen... all come up to take arms... and walk alongside... and just to ground down into this bits.. these pieces that forever rise up to bring me back to a sense of YeS!! and Whole-Ness in my meandering journey... I say Thank You... I bow .. in gratitude & remembrance. Thank you beautiful jagged skipping stones of remembering... how to Inhabit this Life... showing me once again... Yes. For we are so very BlESsEd ..........